Like so many of you, I planned to do something really important to me and life said, “Ha!”
Therefore, I have decided to change course…again.
I’m a person that finds no comfort in not completing something I started. And if I can’t do something well, I’d rather not do it at all.
That being said, I cannot fulfill the demands of a weekly blog any longer. I have tried and it worked until it didn’t.
Teaching a Bible Study class at my local church, leading a marriage ministry with local couples, accepting speaking engagements, and working full-time as a doctor of pharmacy is about all I can do well right now.
My husband and daughters need more of me, a less tired and less divided me. I need more of me as well. The time I took off in 2020 was well spent. I dove into 2021 ready to be “Fruitful” and blog, blog, blog. Here I am 3 weeks into the series I introduced realizing I am running on an empty tank. The margin to fill my mind is simply not there.
I am proud to say that I get to be one of the many immunizing healthcare professionals for the COVID-19 vaccine. It is pure joy seeing people express gratitude, relief, and optimism as they come in for their appointments. But with this privilege comes something I did not anticipate: 10 to 12-hour work days not unlike many healthcare professionals these days.
I’ve always had a rule — when something is added, something else needs to be subtracted. Blogging, for now, is that movable piece for me. Until I am able to do it well and consistently, I won’t. Perhaps there is a lesson in this for all of us. God’s plan is often different than our own and if we listen for and hear His voice, we can lay aside our own desires and follow His leading. For me, it is difficult to say no and fear that I am disappointing you but I want to give you my best and I just cannot do that right now.
Thank you for being subscribers to Thursday’s Thirst QuencHer! We started in February of 2016 and here we are in February of 2021, willing to leave things right here, right now and perhaps, for now.
The past 5 years of writing have been a true blessing and I am hopeful that while the years to come may take on a different look, they will be just as blessed. Thank you for your prayers and understanding. They mean the world to me.