To Whom It May Concern: If you really knew me, you would not love me. And I don't want to lose you and your love, so I can't dare show you the real me. That's why I lie. That's why I smile when I want to cry. That's why I say yes when I want to say no and no when I want to say yes. That's why I spend when I should save; suck in when I really want to exhale; manipulate; cover up; drink up and show up when I would rather be home in bed. It’s exhausting. The idea of being free of secrets and Continue Reading
Heaven And Hell
One day a conversation with my 7-year-old and my 4-year-old daughters went in a direction I was not anticipating. By the time I realized this, it was too late to turn back. Olivia: “. . .’Hell’?” “What is ‘hell’?” Me: (thinking, “Oh Lord, here we go!) “Hell is a place you go after you die if you don’t believe in Jesus.” Olivia: “Ooooh, that’s going to be baaaad!” Gabrielle: “One of my classmates said she doesn’t believe in Jesus.” Olivia: “Ooooh, that’s going to be Continue Reading
You Are Still His
What if you were told to marry a prostitute or a male escort? You know, someone who, as a lifestyle, has intimate encounters with many other people. How would you respond? Isn’t marriage about faithfulness, monogamy, commitment, love, and loyalty? To marry someone who consistently sends pretty clear messages that they struggle in this area is a bit troubling, right? This question was posed years ago in a class I attended. I must admit, I was pretty offended and disturbed at the teacher for Continue Reading